When A Conversation Is More Than Just A Conversation

I cried today. I was in the middle of a sentence and it crept up on me. An invisible hand clasped my throat and squeezed as a heaviness settled in my chest. My voice faded completely as a hot tear spilled over my lash to run down my cheek. Embarrassed, I looked away from the kind face staring back at me from the computer screen. What was happening? How had things strayed off course?

I participated in an Influencer Activation on behalf of Influence Central for Doctor On Demand. I received a free trial coupon code to facilitate my review as well as a promotional item to thank me for my participation.

It began with an appointment via Doctor on Demand, a service that allows you to video chat with board certified physicians, psychologists, and lactation consultants. I had chosen to speak with psychologist Mady Fingeret about the changes happening in our life regarding the momentous decision our family made to join the Military. We are currently seven months strong and doing fantastic but I wanted to be proactive in this transition for my myself, my marriage and my daughter. 

Dr. Fingeret resonated with me because she has 23 years experience in clinical psychology and recently worked at Eglin Air Force base in northern Florida to provide psychological services for the troops returning from Afghanistan and Iraq and their families, in addition to other military related issues and psychological problems.

Before my appointment, I had mapped out the way our 25 minute conversation would go. I had already filled out a brief synoposis of my situation (the military) and filled out a questionaire about my current mental state. Given that, we would obviously dive right in to our situation. She would compliment our little family on our exceptional bond and after asking a series of questions, in which I would provide insightful answers, she would then give us tips and tricks to keeping us on track. She would provide insight into the way a four year old’s mind operates and arm me with the magic formula for making every transition an easy one.

So how did I find myself sitting in the middle of my bedroom feeling completely exposed despite the barrier of a computer screen between us? How had this appointment gone so incredibly wrong? No. That wasn’t it. The appointment had gone exactly where it needed to. 

Things had started out exactly as I imagined and then I said the sentence that changed everything.

I was insecure but we got through it.

That is when things took a turn towards the past as we delved deeper and emotions I had long buried rose to the surface. Some things in the appointment we’re not new to me but things I needed to get out in the open. Other things seemed so obvious when she said them, and yet I had never allowed myself to admit them. The 25 minute appointment had turned into an emotional rollercoaster.

After I shut my computer down, I looked bewildered at my husband like a deer caught in the headlights. What just happened?!?

Warm, safe arms enveloped me as I pieced myself back together, all the while contemplating a follow up appointment. 

You can schedule an appointment with a provider on Doctor On Demand for FREE with code SUNSHINE15. This will cover the cost of either one (1) Medical Video Visit or one (1) Psychologist Video Visit. Signing up was easy and there are a variety of providers for me to choose from. The whole process takes less than 5 minutes from beginning to appointment.